A Listener's Epiphany 💗

Greetings Magnificent Souls to the Attract Health Build Wealth Blog where we have open and honest discussions about ourselves.

This is a place where we breakdown, breakaway, and breakthrough codependency allowing ourselves to attract health, build wealth, and live a peaceful life.

We are tired of being sick and tired.

We are tired, but we are not giving up.

We KNOW that there is something magnificent inside of us.

Because we are fighting daily, hourly, and by the minute: fighting ourselves, our kids, our spouses, we have to do things differently.

We have to break the cycle.

We don’t have a million chances. We have to be happy, NOW. We have to find a way.

So how do we do that? How is that possible?

If you look around at what society is telling you, they’d tell you that what we’re doing is impossible.

Yet, it’s happening.

Every.

Single.

Day.

It’s happening through the practice and love that we call Awakening the Magnificent Soul.

We are all Magnificent Souls, and these are our stories of healing!

Today, a listener by the name of Cristal wrote in to the Epiphany Vault about where she is in her journey.

But, before we get in to the discussion, don’t forget to let me know your thoughts about this episode, any feedback you have, or anything you’d like me to cover on future podcasts at the Epiphany Vault.

Remember, you can share anonymously; it is a safe place and I would welcome the discussion.

Here is what Cristal wrote:

My Epiphany is this. After being in a relationship for the last 9 months and wondering how I could improve things or how I could make things “better” in my relationship, I have decided that not only am I codependent but I have anxious attachment as well. The only way that I can ever feel okay in any relationship is to work on these things to work on myself and to learn how to make myself feel okay so that I'm not dependent on someone else. This is the hardest epiphany but the most comforting. To think that I am responsible for making myself happy is good, but scary, and I have no where to begin. So I read I listen to podcasts and I tried to gain as much knowledge on where I can start on this process.

Hey Cristal out there, if you’re listening, thank you so much for writing in.

And what an amazing realization!

I remember when this happened to me, to the very day.

I’ve shared this before, but the day that suicide popped in my brain as my only option for going forward. I scared the crap out of myself.

I was so scared that I realized, it was only me, that I was the only one that could make myself love and feel love.

Not my boyfriend, not my parents, not my family, not my dogs.

It was that day that I decided to take action…for….my…life.

My life depended on it. Literally.

It’s such a big step, Cristal, that’s amazing.

For me, it felt so good when I had this Epiphany and this knowledge. It’s such a powerful feeling when you first realize that it’s possible to take control of your life.

When I had that same Epiphany, I felt so out of control, I didn’t feel like me, like my true self at all. It was so confusing and painful.

I can tell you with 100% certainty, and this comes from experience, that if you continue to do the work for yourself and on yourself, that door that you’re opening to inner peace, that awakening, will never close.

You will start to notice things that you may not have noticed before: about yourself, about others, and in so many different facets of your life.

It is work but we are worth it.

Our priority is ourselves. Period.

Also, I do want to note, Cristal, that I can absolutely relate to the part about this whole process being scary.

I don’t know if you are like me but until I did, I HAD NEVER, in my life, taken a stand for myself like this.

For so long, I had been conditioned to sacrifice myself for others, so what I was doing felt very unnatural.

Does that make sense?

I was scared that no one was going to like me or love me.

I was afraid that I was going to be alienated.

I was scared that I was going to fail.

I was afraid to be alone.

I was scared that I wasn’t doing life right.