Journal Entry Share ✍️

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We have to break the cycle.

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If you look around at what society is telling you, they’d tell you that what we’re doing is impossible.

Yet, it’s happening.

Every.

Single.

Day.

It’s happening through the practice and love that we call Awakening the Magnificent Soul.

We are all Magnificent Souls, and these are our stories of healing!

Today, in Episode 22, an excerpt from my journal and a reflection on an entry I wrote about 4 months ago.

But, before we get in to the discussion, don’t forget to let me know your thoughts about this episode, any feedback you have, or anything you’d like me to cover on future podcasts at the Epiphany Vault. Remember, you can share anonymously; it’s a safe place and I would welcome the discussion.

Also, thank you so much to those who have been writing in, you know who you are and I’ll get back to you just as soon as I can.

I really like to reflect and meditate on your questions and thoughts.

Thank you so much for your support, caring, and understanding and I’m so glad that the Epiphany Vault is a tool that you can use.

What’s been so amazing about doing this is that I am realizing that many of us are so similar yet we feel so alone in the midst of our codependencies, depressions, and anxiety.

I hope this can offer a brief respite or sense of ease for all of you out there.

On to today’s topic…

Occasionally, I like to look back in my journal to revisit past reflections, epiphanies, ways in thinking.

To do this is not to revel in negativity, but more to take a look, in a more objective way, at the thoughts and feelings that were affecting me at that point in time.

Remembering to be aware of my present, though, I am here now and here I am, now it has been very smooth and not triggering at all to do this.

So, I thought I’d read an excerpt of a journal entry I made.

Here goes:

“May 31, 2018

Rough day for me today…

Don’t know how or why, for that matter, but man, I let the negativity get to me…

I have to remember that it’s okay for things to happen in my life, BOTH positive and negative…

I have to hone in and stay focused…my life is only my own.

And, what that means is that I am responsible.

I can’t let projections on me or outside events affect my core and my being.

I, also, have to remember that it’s okay to be sad and it’s okay to cry.

I had that talk with both of the kids today, that was kind of a special moment for me.

All of the angst that I’m feeling about me finding a new home is really out of my hands and I have to remember that.

It’s not ideal right now, and that’s okay.

It really is okay.

Life is the universe’s work in action.”

And, there you go, a glimpse into my journal.

As I re-read this, I can’t specifically recall the circumstances that lead to me writing this, but I’m sharing this for a couple of reasons.

First, to point out what we talked about on my last podcast, this is my writing and honestly, I’m a little insecure about it. It’s not what others would call artistic or beautiful and, in the past, I would have been embarrassed to share it.

But, this is me and this is cathartic.

Secondly, the overall theme of my entry is rooted in the Serenity Prayer which releases me from controlling aspects of my life and people IN my life.

Man, I have some really hard days. Just thinking about this.

Yesterday was a hard one for me. I cried, I felt sorry for my self. I turned to my journal 4 times yesterday and meditated twice.

I was vulnerable yesterday and the pain was really trying to creep through and keep me down. It was a rough one.