Why didn't I notice it sooner?

That second-guessing anxiety.

That questioning of “why did it take me so long to figure it out?”

That feeling of not-enoughness.

That thought that keeps coming back, I graduated therapy.

They said I was fine.

But, really, I don’t feel fine.

Ya know, I still have those days.

I have those days of thinking I should be farther along than I am.

Those days of noticing the same freakin’ patterns playing out & having deep anger, confusion, & dismay for it too.

When we get stuck there, it feels very lonely.

It feels like no one will understand.

It feels like it’s either give up or keep suffering.

The more we’re there, the crappier we feel.

We feel broken & lost.

Not being okay with our journey & where we are can really give us a lot of anxiety.

We tend to get angry quicker.

We tend to blame ourselves.

We tend to have pain that sits in us, sits in our backs & in our stomachs.

That’s when our anxiety oversteps its bounds & becomes our enemy, not our friend.

I’ve learned that it doesn’t have to be that way.

We can heal our deeper-rooted anxiety, not just the symptoms, so that we can love all parts of ourselves & love where we are.

We can cherish our life.

And we can speak our truth.

Loving ourselves doesn’t have to be a grandiose act, but an internal alignment that feels like home.

Healing anxiety gets us there.

I deserve it.

You deserve it.

Your self-love deserves it.

I see you.

In big love,

💗Lilli