Hi, I'm Lilli.

Hi, I’m Lilli.

My life, for a long long long time was not mine.

On the outside, I was funny & bubbly.
I was successful.
I looked like I had my shit together.
I had a lot of acquaintances but not many close friends.

I put achievement before health.
I put sacrifice before self-love.
I put any type of feeling (good & bad) before a real, deep emotional connection.

I took what I could get (in everything & everyone) before I knew that I actually had a choice.

I knew how to be a projection of who I wanted to be, but on the inside, there was a void.

My life was not my own.

In all truth, I didn’t know I was this way.
10 years ago, I wouldn’t have seen it.

But, when I saw it, this is what I saw:
- An unhealthy, toxic relationship that I knew wasn’t good for me yet I couldn’t shake.
- Attraction to unhealthy, unavailable men that wanted to take from me more than they wanted to give.
- Deep, dark depressive states sprinkled in with anxiety & self-hatred.
- A family who didn’t care to know who I was as a person.
- Money, job, dating, health, & self-love felt like an obligation.
- A body that I kept trying to change by diet after diet & starting over after starting over.

There’s much more but I’ll stop there.

The void opened when I saw it, but it felt like a dark hole that I couldn’t climb out of.
Luckily, I stepped forward instead of retreated.

I began to heal the emotional blocks that were keeping me stuck in those patterns.
And even though it was scary, there was a divine part of me that wanted to live a full life.

Your emotional blocks may be just like mine were.....
Layer on layer on layer on layer that needed to be dissolved, cleared, & healed.

I wouldn’t be writing this today in this beautiful beam of love if I hadn’t been able to do it already & I am always grateful for this opportunity.

Our unhealed blocks will keep us stuck until we want better for ourselves; until we realize that we actually have the choice to want better.

That👏 is👏self 👏love

Out of the dark hole is your magnificence…waiting.

It’s joy instead of obligation.
It’s choice instead of pain.
It’s love in relationships instead of anxiety.

If you are there, I invite you to reach out.
There is guidance waiting for you if you choose.
Trying to do this alone will only keep you stuck.

I see you & I want you to see what I see.

In big love,
💗Lilli